I hate it when the person you want to understand something the most doesn't want to understand at all.

a week of wishes

I really never thought I would say that wishes pay off, that sometimes they actualy come true. But now I think I can. And I don't know what more to say.

biology

I have a biology draft assignment due in tomorrow and I haven't started, it's probably what I should be doing right now but I know that doing it is not going to make me understand it any more, or care. I know I've already waited until the last minute, but I think I'll wait a little longer.

about school work

I'm not really one of those people who excels at school, I use to be, but somewhere along the way my marks just lost excellence. I'm one of those people who sits in class drawing cities on the back of their hand, literally, (I drew one today actually that I'm quite proud of); but on the rare occasion a get an assignment that really catches my fancy and I work day and night at it until it has reached my level of perfection, and sometimes I don't get an A, but when I do, it is one of the most rewarding feelings in the world. What I'm getting at is, when you work really hard on something and the outcome is better than you expected, you get that feeling that you can't get from anything else, a real feeling of accomplishment, different from when you get something good simply for something you didn't really give a shit about in the first place. It's like a deserving feeling, and it's really one of the only things I enjoy about school work, besides the occasional random fact.

%$@&#

I think I may swear a little but too much, bit I really can't seem to stop. It just slips out, even at the most inappropriate moments. I should never be around children, I am a terrible influence. Last weekend my little cousin was here and I kicked my toe and swore at the top of my lungs. I think I may have scared her a little.

judgment day

Today had to be one of the most boring days of my life. I was forced to sit through multiple lectures about a subject I really couldn't give a shit about, while surrounded my students from different schools shushing me and laughing at the most predictable jokes it made me want to cry. I spent the lectures drawing a city on the back of my hand, and chewing several pieces of gum to the point of tastelessness and then sticking it under my rock hard seat. But I did learn something from this long judgment day, I will never, ever study medical research.

not sure

There are so many things I want to say but I can't think of how to put them in words. I'm really sick of familiarity, I want to go somewhere strange and meet new people and do things out of my dreary routine, only I think I'll have to wait two more years until I can really start over again. I don't think I can wait.